well.. CG postpone till Friday.. argh kinda bored wanted CG miss it.. sianzation hahaha no choice stay home cooked Carbornara for myself with 3 cheese cocktails and 2 roast black pepper beef well even i cooked it yesterday.. still wanna cook it again today.. just taste so good.. wanted more..

ahh well.. after viewing trish blog.. found out tat she got 2 kitty's at home awww.. my heart just melt just by viewing at cats becus it remind me of Youruichi-san hahahaha.. too bad wanted a heskey beagle or something cute enuff for my hammy.. only dogs.. no kitty's =( cus i hav fishes too.. and my precious 6 hams.. hahaha

argh... 2 years in Church i have come so far... even though at time i feel like blacksliding but no way.. i took advice from shuzhen hahha.. it work but have to depend on myself n motivate myself.. to move on.. den this month jolene send me a song called At the Foot of the Cross thought i heard it bfore at Mount Zion its by Kathryn Scott its a great worship song n it has a mix of Celtic (Irish) n Scottish style in it. While listening memories of my past burden reflected upon me... if only i can appear to myself in my Past, would gladly tell myself to stop wat im doing.......

drop my hp twice in a week.. dam so heart pain my d500c commited sucide twice.. tink its better to just tape it to the wall.. hahha forget it.. tink im killing my 6 hammy.. always walking past the top cage which contain 3 of the 6 hams.. i will just bang the cage... loudly hahahah retardard.. fellow.. who cares lolx...

alrite guess i better go now n prepare Feast for myself..