this week has been hmmmm cold rainy and basically everyday is tiring had my lesson on wet ground playing in the jungle had weird stuff climbing over my back... argh just pretend im sitting on a icy terrain covered with snow and penguins hee...

something in my mind suddenly came forth and it made me to think about some stuff on thursday night after receiving the sms from my sherpard.. that my sherp has not been fellowshipping with me for a long time already.... as i lie down on the bed and reflect back tears started to flow down... the only time i get to talk n fellowship with my fellow brother n sister is via msn... where else in Church espacially i hardly have the time to go around only a blessful smile n a wave to those whom i know.. as i reflect the familar heavenly melody of this song "From the Inside Out" started playing as i listen to the beautiful sound of the acoustic and vocals as the band started singing i started to settle down and listen closely... to how the lyric can reflect on me...

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

tears just continue to roll down cheek.... just like the 1st part of the lyrics says thousand times i've fail but your mercy remains and should i stumble again im caught in your grace..... i did stumble a few times but yet i still remind strong cause Christ will never ever let me go.... i may have failed him at times glorifed him at times but never the less He will forever remain the same... ever loving forever there with me..

At the cross I bow my knee Where Your blood was shed for me, Theres no greater love than this. You have overcome the grave Your glory fills the highest place What can separate me now?
You go before me, You shield my way, Your hand upholds me; I know You love me.
And when the earth fades, Falls from my eyes, And You stand before me, I know You love me; I know You love me.